Recovering
Recently had a talk with my friends about recovering from mental illness, and I was the only one who hadn't had any plans for it.
It took me a long time to come to terms with my condition and accept it as my personality.
The idea of recovery makes me feel like it shouldn't be a part of me and something I have to get rid of,
which makes me anxious. It's like a forced responsibility. If the illness is only affecting me then there shouldn't be a problem with not wanting to get better.
I'd rather feel empty through most of the days than waste my days stressing out on a disorder that wasn't even my fault.
